My stomach problem came back again...
Just like last yr during ramadhan...dis yr...again but even worse dis time...
I still remember how i actually got hospitalised on the 3rd day of raya,...
And i remembered how sweet of AYU to stay by my side accompanying me at TTSH the whole day till almost midnite...
How terrible things happened last yr....erm if u guys still remember jop broke up w me at dat point of time too...I was terribly in PAIN...

Aniway , back to my current moment...
First week of fasting was kinda ok but suddenly d pain started again...
I dun tink its gastric...cos actually i so hav dis tummy pain occasionally even before ramadhan ..
Just dat now it makes a slight difference because its a challenge for me to keep on fasting or not w my condition .

Dis is how my tummy pain goes...
Previously , i get d attack on d lower left side of d abdomen usually in d evenings...
I avoided dinner n supper at times becos d pain got even worse after meals in d evenings..
It was just a mth ago wen i had a dinner w my cousin , kak lena n sis at NEWTON while d pain came ....so unbearable dat my cousin had to drive my car home while i lay down at d backseats...
For d past few days...i get dis pain even in d morning , day and basically anytyme of d day...
Now...not only on d left side of d tummy but also spreaded up all d way near to my rib cage...
Each time i take a breath in...i feel d pain...its terrible..

I am sick n tired of seeing different doctors giving all sorts of ASSUMPTIONS of my condition..
Sum clinic GPs said gastric , the ones in TTSH said stomach infection , sum even said due to lactose intolerant and d recent one....hmmmm said might be due to Pelvic disorder...s many theories....i really dunno which is d ryte one..
But i noe i have been suffering for more than a year and i want to noe wat is really wrong with me....

I hope dis time i will really find out...
Cos now i got referred to SGH for a thorough check and stomach scan .
If neccessary , i wud also be advised to c a gynae at SGH...

All this while i have been hiding all d yummy pain n ache frm jop becos i dun want him to worry.
He alwiz get paranoid as he read up a lot abt d symptoms i had and alwiz tink of d worst possibilities of conditions dat could happen to me...
This time i just couldnt hide anymore..
He found out becos i just couldnt bear d pain at times while i am driving or simply while sitting down watching d tv.
He wud ask whenever he sees me lookin restless..."ur tummy pain again?"
In fact now , i feel more relieved dat i hav him by my side alwiz tryin to comfort my pain and make me feel more at ease.

I am feeling v worried now...because of many diff reasons...
First , i am bz preparing for d wedding and need to save money for d various expenses .
I am also supposed to sit for an operation to get rid of d bunion deformity on both my feet after d wedding which is goin to cost me abt almost 4k-8k and now dis tummy problem...
I just hope i wun be a burden to jop..
I havent been wantin to tell him abt my pain becos i dun want him to tink too much..
But its eating me up inside...
Each time he start to talk abt things after d WEDDING like HONEYMOON , NEW HOUSE & STARTING A FAMILY....i feel v sad deep inside becos i noe my poor health condition is goin to cause sum hindrance to all these...

Now i am working so hard , teaching at SOTA , coaching n choreographing d dances at schools and also do part time at d saloon n freelance makeup just to save lots of money not dat i am greedy but i hav so many things i noe i hav to save up for in future...

Jop doesnt noe of all dis worries i am having...
All he noes...and wat we r focussing on ryte now is d wedding preparations..
It really touches me just now wen i was driving after meeting d logistic pple who r supplying tentages , tables n chairs for my wedding because jop mentioned , " I am so glad i am goin to marry you cos u always make all d preparations so easy w all yr contacts within yr finger tips and able to source for so many things within a short time . I wudnt noe wat to do all by myself.."

I just smiled while i tell myself in my heart how much i really love THIS GUY and dat is d reason y i want TO MAKE OUR DREAM come true...MAKE HIM HAPPY and not worry abt anything...
Of course d preparations r not so simple like he thought...becos i had so many sleepless nights preparing the guest lists , looking for design ideas for every single thing , etc...

At the end of d day...
I am doin everything because....I LOVE HIM..

A lil update on preparations done for my wedding.....
I fell in love w d outfit FARISHA was wearing for one of d bridal shows at expo last yr..
Really love it so much but i noe it wun be possible for me to wear it becos d outfit is frm another bridal company...I tried to settle for sumthin frm d bridal house i engaged but sumhow...i just cudnt make MY HEART fall for another lehenga....The colors r simply magnificient n lovely....
So u noe wat i did....
Jop was buying his bag@ BLACKHAWK along Selegie Rd wen i noticed dat STYLEMART was just ard d corner...
I remembered readin in a bridal magazine stating dat d indian bridal outfits there r simply exquisite...
So i walked in w jop hoping to find sumthin nice....guess wat.....
I found dis fabric....ALMOST similar to d one i fell in love w dat FARISHA WORE...
U agree w me???look alike ryte??

I tried it on n d staff at Stylemart was so nice to attend to me letting me try on d fabric...
The skirt is ready but only d fabric for d 'choli' which is the top has to be sewn acording to watever design i like....And i simply LURVE D SCARF...even though its so heavy...
SO WITHOUT FURTHER DELAY....I GRABBED DIS BEAUTIFUL THING..even though the price is kinda steep..
Wat d hell.....Its my wedding outfit...I am goin to wear it on d most important day of my life...
I dunno wat i am goin to do w dis outfit after d wedding...cos its goin to be too grand to wear even for a wedding function...but watever lah...i just dun care heheh...LURVE IT so i just got to grab it...
So i plan to make my top turquoise n off shoulder...hehehhehhe....cant wait...

After getting my outfit , i remembered that i hav to get a matching one for JOP too...
So , Nisha staff who was serving me brought both of us to d 2nd floor to view d collections for d GENTLEMEN...
Plenty charming looking Sherwani....


Jop and i really love dis one he is wearin in d pic above becos of d intricate motif embroidery on d sleeves...
Check out d matching footwear too...matching embroidery w d sleeves...
So we both bought our outfits dat day...and i hav to inform abg SHAH dat i wud be wearing my own Lehenga so i would be having one extra outfit for my wedding day which i guess can be allocated for d bridesmaid's gown n best man's suit...GD idea???

On a separate note....
I still havent finalise d cake design dat i want..
The last meeting w kak fai frm Perfect Frosting was more of us discussing on d type of flowers dat i want for d cakes...
Reason y we cant decide n confirm is becos i hav yet to confirm d exact colors for decor since d venue hav been changed to an outdoor n garden theme.,...PURPLE is definitely gonna be der but havent decide on d other colors dat are goin to go w dat ...
I did sum research on d net and saw gorgeous cake designs i might consider...so in love w d one on top...
This one w d veil is sweet too
This is another lovely one
Purple....my fav
The rest below r simply lovely too...
Omg....i just cant decide...can u guys help me??





Hope dat i could make up my mind before d next meeting w kak fai...hehhe

Till den
Adios

Its been a while almost 2 weeks since d last entry because i have been so tied up w so much werk to do and also d wedding preparations dat i totally forgot to update d blog..
I noe its been a week but i shall update n show u sum glimpse of our photoshoot ('behind d scenes' )pictures.....Dats me w my 2nd darling-My baby lancer , so early in d morning before heading to d studio
Arrived at D'SHOOTZ studio at 11am
We both took some pictures while waiting for abg shah to be ready
After makeup n hair done , start to get dressed n ready for d first outfit shoot...
The indian outfit
I love dis outfit...d color n its v comfy...
Cudnt hav d chance to take any shot of d 2nd outfit cos i was rushing but dis is d 3rd outfit...
Lurve dis black n white outfit cos its even more comfortable...fits me perfectly...
Dats our fourth outfit as u can c....
Jop lookin like a MALAY HISTORICAL WARRIOR..
Ni dah mcm hang jebat ke hang kebun???hahahha

The last outfit of day and d time was ard 6 pm....
We were all ready to go out to Fort Canning for our outdoor shoot...
Dats us in my car...thanx to FUDGE d photographer , for driving my car..
The shoot was v tiring but of cos entertaining as we both had a gd time laffing at each other's antics...
When we finished everything at ard 9pm...
I realised i was super duper hungry ...
So we headed down to LAU Pa sat TO HAV LATE DINNER w Our new hangout frenz who r also d org kuats for our big day,....
Need no more introduction ryte...d familiar faces again
The creative couple frm JENTAYU GALLERY
And not forgetting dis cute bubbly n can be panicky couple frm FAP...hahhah

Jop n me can never thank these pple enuff for all their efforts in helping us to plan for our big day...
Even today wen we met dem , they just brought up another suggestion for us to consider to overcome some problems we r facing...
Thank u all so much frm d bottom of our hearts...

Till den
Adios